Hello! My name is Dianne and I am a wife, a mother and a passionate pursuer of Jesus. I am also a health and wellness coach, which was born out of my personal story of sickness, faith and overcoming. After facing some very serious health issues, my journey to good health is actually what led me back to my relationship with the Lord several years ago and I have not looked back. I am fully committed to allowing the Lord to make something beautiful out of the these ashes as I follow Him and watch Him continue to turn all things around for my good. Through the good, the bad and the ugly, I just keep saying “yes” to God over and over (though sometimes it’s a weak and frail “yes”) and in return, he keeps healing, redeeming, restoring and making all things new.
I grew up in a large family as the baby of 6 kids. My parents, who are amazing and still together after 56 years, always did the best they could for us and still do. Even still, the path I took in life was not always the straight or the narrow one. Although I grew up in church (and I thank God for that foundation!), unfortunately I was never secure in my identity in Christ. I was always so fearful of going to hell or getting “left behind,” even at a young age, never sure that I was quite “good enough” to make it.
I experienced trauma at an early age, having been sexually abused just shy of 6 years old with hardly the ability to articulate what happened to me. As the years went on, I never thought that experience had a lasting impact on me, but I was certainly wrong. After really getting to know the Lord and allowing Him access to all of the broken places in my heart, I know now how deeply that experience affected me and contributed to not only the way I viewed myself, but also some of the choices that I made.
At a young age, I fell prey to the influences of the world and for years and years, I would look for love in all the wrong places and search for approval, value and identity in all the wrong things. As a very young teen and continuing into adulthood, I spent years in and out of destructive relationships. I gave up on childhood passions and dreams for the sake of boys and the fear of “rejection,” and basically wasted my most valuable school-age years on nonsense when I should have been just living the simple life. I covered up relational hurts and disappointments by becoming “too cool” and eventually a “mean girl,” full of sarcasm and moments of anger and hostility. I was either the one with the chip on her shoulder or the life of the party. I was an emotional mess, but the bottom line is I was simply lost.
As the years went on, I found my groove into who I thought I was. I had matured and carried a confidence about me, appearing to be the one who had it all together, sure of myself, driven and able to hold my own. From college and beyond, I regularly overextended myself in just about every area of my life, whether socially, personally or professionally. I lived life in the fast lane from one extreme to the other, driven in my career and independent living while also playing hard, living it up socially and basically not taking care of body at all (because of course I thought I was invincible). And during those years, there I was again chasing after yet another wrong relationship and the hurts of which led me to act out in messed up, reckless ways. Still, I kept it moving, dressed myself up, threw myself into my work and social life and even managed to experience much success in my striving, however, that performing nature made me miserable.
In my mid-twenties, I began to experience challenges in my physical health, some very serious, though I never let them keep me down for long. I would just get right back up and right back on the hamster wheel of that reckless life, striving after the wind. I had no peace and after years of living that way, I would describe myself as feeling “all jumbled up inside.” It’s interesting that I put it in those terms considering the health issues I had internally. Of course I didn’t realize it then, but what was driving this fast-paced, unfulfilling lifestyle was the perfect storm of past trauma, hurts, rejections, disappointments and emotional wounds, but most importantly, a false perception of who God was and who he created me to be. All of my empty pursuits left me broken, burned out and even sick, not only emotionally but physically.
Enter my husband, who came into my life when I least expected it and literally grabbed hold of my heart. Life started to slow down a little but in less than 3 months after getting married, we were quickly stopped in our tracks when I received some grave news regarding my health. It’s so crazy how different life started out for us and what it became. We were newlyweds, just starting our lives together, just getting to know each other, but we suddenly we found ourselves almost overnight, faced with medical news and decisions that at the outset appeared would alter our lives forever… and it did. In our desperation, we both returned to the faith that we had each forsaken for so many years, hoping that the Lord in His great mercy would save me and restore me to health.
There is no way that I deserved it, trust me, but because of His tender mercy and great love, the Lord came right into those desperate circumstances, encountered both me and my husband in a powerful way and led us on a journey that would forever change our lives. I actually thought that I was the one so desperate for Him, but I have since realized that He was even more desperate for me. In all of those years of me chasing after other things, He was right there all along… chasing after me. In fact in hindsight, I can see key moments in my life where the Lord was nudging me, but I was never ready to fully surrender. Fortunately, the circumstances surrounding my health scared me enough to catch my attention and finally, I stopped in surrender… also in desperation yes, but still, I finally began to surrender to Jesus.
What began as me seeking the Lord purely for my physical healing became so much more. Not only has He healed me in my physical body (I am a sign and a wonder, literally), but He has done a work deep within my heart and soul and continues this work every single day. Even beyond my health, the Lord has walked with me through some very difficult times and transitions over these last several years and these circumstances have often challenged my faith and my trust in Him, but without fail, He comes through time and time again and is always faithful to move me forward in every season and in every circumstance. He is building the house of my life and continues to establish me on a firm foundation.
In faith, I want to share my heart and experiences with you, trusting and knowing that the work that Jesus has begun in me He will do for you also because He loves us all just the same. I pray that my words will uplift you, encourage you and bring hope into your circumstances, and that through the power of the Holy Spirit, you too will be transformed, set free and begin to walk out the abundant life Jesus came to give you.
I can’t wait to connect with you, to share my stories with you and to likewise hear yours, as we both continue to grow into who God has called us to be. Friends, it is my sincere prayer that you would prosper in all things, body and soul, and that your spirit would also be strengthened by the only One who is able to do abundantly more than we could ever think, imagine or dream.
He can and will do it. I am living proof.
I waited and waited and waited some more;
Patiently, knowing God would come through for me.
Then, at last, He bent down and listened to my cry.
He stooped down to lift me out of danger,
From the desolate pit I was in,
Out of the muddy mess I had fallen into.
Now He’s lifted me up into a firm, secure place,
And steadied me while I walk along His ascending path.
A new song for a new day rises up in me
Every time I think about how He breaks through for me!
Ecstatic praise pours out of my mouth until
Everyone hears how God has set me free.
Many will see His miracles; they’ll stand in awe of God,
And fall in love with Him!
Psalm 40:1-3 (TPT)